My best friend graduated last week, and I'm incredibly proud of him. During his graduation ceremony, I started to think how far "behind" I am compared to all my old classmates. Most of them have graduated with at least a bachelors, maybe started a family, or even achieved "fame". I however did none of that. I spent five years of my life working at a retail store that didn't value me or my work. Sure, I met a lot of people and had to deal with all sorts of situations that gave me valuable experience, but leaving that job on bad terms, I was left with nothing professionally.
This feeling haunts me every time I get rejected for a job (over 550 applications). I feel trapped. And because the cost of education is completely unaffordable for me (I don't qualify for student loans. It's a long story), I'm stuck in this cycle of nothingness
I tried to start a YouTube channel about psychology this year (https://www.youtube.com/@LabPsychodynamika), but I feel like no one cares about my work because I don't have the qualifications to teach yet.
So... now... I just sit and think about how I can grow as a person and hope that I can get back on the path towards success. It'll come one day, I just know it.
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